Nope, there's still no news about our current adoption. Uuuugh. I had a friend ask, kindly, not long ago what had gone wrong. Nothing has gone wrong. Nothing has happened at all. We've been waiting for a match since August and it feels like it's been a really long wait.

People often recommend other agencies or going the foster care route. We're not opposed to these, but we just don't feel that is the path God has called us to. It's so tempting to "widen the net" and I went so far as to do an afternoon of internet research on other possible agencies. But, it just feels wrong. I feel like we have the freedom to sign on with another agency, but it would not be an act of obedience. In fact, I feel like it would be the opposite--an "act of lack of faith" so to speak. A hit the nail on the head when he said it feels a bit like Abraham and Sarah--having the promise of a child and finding our own way to hurry the blessing into being. That didn't turn out so well for them in the long run.

I have no idea why it is taking so long for us. It's a tremendous act of faith to give up my jealousy when I hear of another family (sometimes even a family who wasn't trying to be matched!) receiving a match. It's a tremendous act of faith to stay here. To stay right where we are. To not back out and give up. To not get anxious and move in to areas God has not directed us to go. I doubt Abe and Sarah felt like God had a good reason for delaying their promised child. I doubt they even understood His reasons after Isaac arrived. When Abraham was walking his son up the mountain to sacrifice him, he probably was still wondering why God had made them wait so long for this child, especially since the plan was just to kill him young anyway. But, Abraham let the question remain and acted on faith instead. I guess we're not so unlike that. There are lots of questions without answers, but we have to go the direction of faith. So, no foster care, no changing or adding agencies, just staying the course and waiting. And hoping. And believing.